Excerpt from the Jane Espenson penned story “Again, Sunnydale, California, 1999” from Tales of the Slayer, Volume 2 (2003).
Buffy, Xander and Willow travel back in time from 2001 to 1999 and in this scene, Season 6 Buffy tells Season 3 Giles why she doesn’t want to go back.
“Here’s my life, Giles. My lovely, miraculous life. First, Angel leaves me. Then I meet a new man, Riley. But he leaves me too. Oh, and I get a little sister, did they tell you about that one? I get the little sister I’ve always had but who never existed. And then my mother dies.”
Giles took another step backward and steadied himself with a hand against the wall. Joyce was going to die?
“That’s right, Watcher. She dies. A brain tumor. It’s probably in there now, cooking away.”
“Buffy, please, don’t go on. I can’t -“
“Can’t what? Can’t hear it or can’t take it? Because it’s not over. We’re not even at the part where I die again to save the world. But I go to heaven, until Willow brings me back, pulls me out of paradise. Then you leave forever, which, by the way, thanks oh so much in advance. And I’m so alone, Giles. You can’t imagine how alone I am. I’m so alone I’m having sex with Spike just because it’s the only way I can feel anything.”